“The victims are in heaven and I’m living in hell,” he told social worker Guylaine Cayouette on Sept. 20, 2017.
He told her he was tired of playing a role, saying “it’s not true that I don’t remember anything. I remember it all.”
Bissonnette then continued to recount what happened that night.
She describes him as calm, articulate and coherent.
During sentencing arguments, Aymen Derbali, who was left in a wheelchair after the shooting, testified — the first of Bissonnette’s victims to take the stand.
He told the court he was configuring his son’s TV when he realized he was about to be late for the evening prayers.
Derbali explained he hesitated before heading to the mosque.
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“I was the closest one,” he said, recalling he had just entered the mosque when he heard gunshots.
The father of three said he was hit in the leg and fell to the floor.
The 41-year-old said he then tried to stop the shooter, but Bissonnette hit him with seven bullets — including one that is still in his spinal cord.
“I didn’t look at him at all,” Derbali said. “He was just — I didn’t look at him at all.”
In a report detailing his internet activity, presented by the Crown during sentencing arguments, Bissonnette looked up the Centre Culturel Islamique de Québec Facebook page, as well as its website, numerous times.
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He saved pictures of the outside facade and interior of the mosque.
He also looked up the Muslim Students Association at Laval University, as well as searching general information about Islam and feminism.
Bissonnette looked at YouTube videos about firearms, Donald Trump‘s Twitter account and collected multiple photos of firearms.
The report also includes several text message exchanges Bissonnette had with his dad, Raymond:
Jan. 28 at 5:52 p.m.
Raymond: twitter is going crazt on #muslimban
Alexandre: i saw
Alexandre: but who cares
Alexandre: They have no power
Raymond: its always the same bunch of idiots
The day of the shooting, Bissonnette searched the Centre Culturel Islamique de Québec dozens of times on Google, as well as looked at articles about immigrants on ABC and Breitbart News websites.
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He also looked up articles about immigrants stuck at JFK Airport as a result of Trump’s travel ban; he looked at Justin Trudeau’s Twitter account — specifically a tweet the prime minister sent welcoming those immigrants to Canada.
An hour before the shooting, he watched a video on the Glock 9mm handgun, the same gun he used in the shooting.
Evidence presented in court showed Bissonnette was preoccupied by this type of material for at least a month before the shooting.
He was a member of a shooting range and watched dozens of videos on shooting and guns.
Crown prosecutors revealed Bissonnette Google searched “Mexico school shooting,” “mall shooting,” “airport shooting,” “dead school shooters” and”Lépine shooting scene” — in reference to the Montreal École Polytechnique massacre — several times.
He was also particularly interested in Justin Bourque, the shooter that killed RCMP officers in New Brunswick, as well as Dylan Roof, a white supremacist behind the Charleston church shooting in 2015.