Canadian Olympic gold medalist and Winnipeg mom Jill Officer gives us a twice-monthly look behind the scenes of her dual life in her blog, Jill’s House.
Imagine carrying five 2-4’s of beer on your back like this guy…
…through the mountainous trails of the Himalayas yet!
Without even realizing it, I was feeling like that guy up until making a public announcement 10 days ago that I would be stepping away from full-time curling.
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Now I can relax and drink that beer!
Well, maybe not yet because we are off to represent Canada at the World Women’s Curling Championships in North Bay, Ontario starting on Saturday.
But I’ll tell ya, I do feel some serious relief now that my decision is public and I can freely talk about it.
For those who are just catching up, I decided I would be stepping away from full-time curling at the end of this season.
I will remain as fifth player for Team Jones to take advantage of some of the perks that come with having won the Scotties this year, including a return trip to the event next year in Sydney, NS.
Now that all is said and done and I reflect, I have been preparing myself for this moment for well over a year, if not longer. I have spoken about it at great length with my husband, sports psychologist and others. So although the final decision and verbal affirmation to my team that they needed a new player was done in January, I knew it was coming. I knew I needed to make this choice.
However, it’s still been an incredible journey of emotions, especially the last couple of months.
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From the disappointment of not going to the Olympics to winning provincials, verbalizing my decision, to winning the Scotties, I have experienced every human feeling possible. That includes a deep sadness that I knew would hit me as if those five 2-4’s of beer had landed on my chest.
I could feel me letting go of something that has been my life, my passion and my love, so it was no surprise that I shed thousands of tears during this grieving process.
I know curling still exists and it will still exist in my life, but the capacity in which I’ve known it will significantly change. My daily routines will change. My seasonal routines will change. My travel routines will change. But that is exactly what I am looking forward to!
You may have noticed that I am not using the word “retirement.” I am doing that on purpose. It seemed too final to me. I felt like I would be closing doors on potential opportunities.
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I certainly know I am done with the full-time four-year Olympic cycle grind. I don’t have it in me. But you just never know what might slide through an open door down the road.