“The whole range of emotions kick in,” Chris Reader says. “You’re excited at first, then you’re sad. Maybe not sad, but your emotions are all over the place.”
Reader is one of almost 400 veterans and first responders who have participated in a new kind of therapy in Canada.
“We join when we’re, you know 17, 18, 19 (years old)” says Todd Hisey, who served as an infantry officer in the Canadian military for a total of 22 years. He has gone overseas with the military three times.
“In some ways it defined who I was. And now that I wasn’t in the military any more, it’s kind of like, ‘Who am I now?'”
Reader’s experience in returning to civilian life has been similar.
“Everything from anxiety, crippling depression, survivor’s guilt,” he explains. “I have all these symptoms that are following me around now that I now have to deal with.
“I feel like I’m fighting to try and be a shadow of what I used to be.”
That’s part of what led Hisey to hunting. Several years after he was removed from service, he created The Veteran Hunters, turning veterans and first responders into “heroes who hunt.”
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“I felt a form of satisfaction because I could still soldier, but now I could use those skills to put food on my family’s table,” Hisey says.
The non-profit began in 2019. Since then it has benefited from countless donors, landowners and even a TV show.
“We tell everybody, ‘I can’t guarantee you a harvest, but I can guarantee you that you’re going to have a memorable experience with wildlife,'” Hisey says.
And it’s the friendships built around those experiences that organizers say create value, and — hopefully — healing, for years to come.
“It’s not a community,” Reader says. “It’s family.”